its so important to love everyone

2/25/2020 i was feeling kinda low from doubt but i know that's the pain route that i shouldn't go that way and life is so magical so i asked for uplifting vibes and i have them now idk what to do project-wise lol i really wanna draw but i know i should write first lol i need like a comic plan i think i might as well do comics first except i want books kinda divided by character but then again... its not like they never gonna interact lol i think i will focus on individuals and do readings for them but with deep metaphors and poetry i cried when i told anthony green in my head i love his voice and his look and style and i heard him say he missed me ....i feel so blessed when i talk to people in my head i cry again lol cause i feel very strong bonds and i miss them too but we should be happy cause were alive and ..thats a deep blessing to realize its so important to love everyone

2/26/2020

i think i should make a book first man even though animating seems funner to watch.... idk which is funner to make for now... ive been feeling not very receptive since yesterday but i know how to make it receiving i have to stop defining it as hard it didnt used to be hard cause i used to define it easy its all faih i put into is what i can get so.... i think i should make music again cause its boiling is more noticeable now i so stuck lol when i think its hard to choose how to start the book but im having fun ima let the highers guide me for this lol (ttheres alot of me characters i didnt hit some of them up in telempathy yet ....im overwhelmed but i cant really say they dont have a me look...so i feel i have to include al lon my list and some might be more friends im not sure ...i met one guy with an almost very close to a 'me' look but hes more of a best friend though ... in vibe i just feel the vibe is more comfy as friends with him as he never turned me on lol so i have to feel like the vibe is super close and thats what keeps me honestly addicted to them its like the vibe already includes our past bond as a glue the thing about sappy....he was always designed to have my heart...theres still many characters to make up in flow but yeah...sappy...has always had a heart of gold in design hes like jesus i feel anthony has our sappy look as a sign like hes a sweet guy were not exactly the same in personality which thats completely cool but i cant believe how amazed i am about anthony is the same face character i designed my sim character sappy ....without me trying to make it anthony they haave all the same proportions of face the same style eyes ....the same hair styles and beard scruff styles sometimes shaved too yeah thats sappy just saw this

i think theres a grand reason the other fighter is a baby mask and anthony only punches the baby in the stomach...and lets the baby win thats such a sappy thing to do...sappy doesnt like hurting people but i think getting hit in the stomach is a nice metaphor of if i saw it as a loving stomach realization in the way bob marley says when you feel music hit you you feel no pain sense to bless the stomach and yeah theres a reason but im not gonna interpret farther i think thats a tear

i cried when i saw sgt clifford stones project camelot interview of when hes in a library he says he worked for the government army secret project about E.t.s being captured or something when he described the E.t. race he says they are so loving they'd rather let someone kill them then they hurt us.....they never want to hurt us they love us that much and i cried cause im like that too he even cried when he said the e.t. just wants to go back to its family first celeb i was into when i was 5 was justin timberlake then in middle school it was billie joe armstrong then sonny more then i found kurt and courtney love lol then i found anthony thank god for the internet lol then in middle school i found gaara and wanted him real then rihanna dressed like a gaara was in my dreams then in highschool i saw the live shows of bands: chiodos, silverstein, the millionaires, brokencyde, and sledding with tigers and mouthful of stone i dont remember the rest but thats fun huh? i wanna see more but i'd need a darn chair lol oh i think another was love you long time suicide silence the bands from the town i grew up in lake elsinore ca my friends brother was in the eyes of orsiris i think it was called idk if he still is but ....??? i forget actuallyy but my friend adam is a big time drummer since elementary school last time i chatted a long time ago he was in his older brothers band